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The Truth About Vaccines: An Apology Letter from Dr. Rachael Ross

The following is a letter written by Dr Rachael Ross to her patients and viewers after she discovered the truth about vaccines, and the harm that they do to hundreds of thousands of children every year.

While maintaining her medical practice in Gary, Indiana, Dr. Rachael Ross served as a co-host on the Emmy® Award-winning talk show, The Doctors®. For three consecutive seasons she was the approachable Family Physician on the show that viewers worldwide related to.

Following this letter are two more posts written by practising nurses who also discovered the truth.

If you’re unsure about vaccinating your children then maybe reading what real medical practitioners have to say, after they discovered the truth about vaccines, will prompt you to research further….

Dr. Rachael Ross’ Letter

I’ve ordered thousands of vaccines in my career as a physician. Until recently I had never considered vaccine injury as more than folklore. Weeks ago I never would’ve believed a story about vaccine injured triplets….so the past few weeks have been difficult. I have struggled to make sense of all that I have seen and learned. I met a mother of triplets the other weekend, a very attractive white woman with years added onto her face and her smile. She recalled to me the day her triplets were born. She and her then husband were ecstatic that she was able to carry them for 36 weeks.

At the time, mom was so happy that they were inside of her long enough to mature, they were born perfectly healthy. I can totally relate since I am now twelve weeks post0partum. I had very similar worries carrying my little princess. Mom’s eyes dropped though as I gave her a hearty smile of excitement. The same day that her triplets were given their six-month check-up and vaccines, was the same day that all three of her kids checked out. She said it was as if someone replaced her children with new ones. They unlearned all they knew…regressed and screamed for days. I stood there motionless and speechless. She didn’t want my pity, nor my tears, she just wanted me to know.

I’m a new mom, a sister, an aunt, a cousin, a friend, and a family medicine physician. I’m from a small town called Gary, Indiana. As a matter of fact, I practice medicine about two blocks away from the house that I along-with my eight brothers and sisters grew up in. My dad bought the house in the 60s, after he met my mom. They both migrated to the Midwest to escape the blatant racial tension of the deep south, and the rest is history.

In our small town the emergency room is named after my dad for all the great medical care he has provided through the years. During the financial boom he even donated money to build part of it… He’s a pretty special guy; we both can sit and gush about each other for hours at a time. I’ve always been a Daddy’s girl.

I came back home to practice medicine in our small town after spending eight years in Nashville, TN. I did my undergraduate work at Vanderbilt University. After graduation I went to medical school at Meharry Medical College, my Dad’s alma mater, with my two sisters Ruth and Rebekkah.

Our family-run clinic is sometimes my pride and joy, and other times the bane of my existence lol. My brother Nathaniel is the director (he says he’s going to miss me being pregnant because I was much more pleasant). My mom Ruthie is the manager (she expects us to wear our white coats even when the AC is out). My Dad, the smartest and most charming doctor I’ve ever met, is 86 and he still sees patients a few times a week. We also have a wonderful doctor named Shelly Sandifer in our clinic. She came to work with us after my sister Rebekkah passed away trying to have a child of her own. Dr. Sandifer has a lovely Bajan/British accent, a great sense of humor, and the patients love her. We practice community medicine every single day.

We treat families at our clinic. Sometimes I don’t have to ask patients much about their family history. I treat their aunts, uncles, parents, and sometimes even their grandparents…it’s the best feeling in the world. Our patients trust us to take care of them, and that is something that we all take very personally. When we say, “our family, treating your family…” we absolutely mean it.

We all took an oath to first and foremost “Do No Harm.” It’s been difficult. Throughout my tenure as a physician, I have watched while our academy has pushed certain medication that we find years later has been causing more harm than good…that hurts.

I have witnessed the vaccine schedule grow from 16 doses of 4 vaccines from birth to six years old when I was a child, to the current recommendation of 49 doses of 14 vaccines between birth and age six, and 69 doses of 16 vaccines between birth and the age of eighteen….and we’ve been giving them on-time, sometimes five shots a day to help kids ‘catch-up’, and all without question. Medical school and residency taught us all to do so.

I guess I cant help but wonder if there’s a connection between the fact that when we had to give fewer vaccines we had fewer childhood diseases. It is only human to wonder. We had fewer learning disabilities, less asthma, less autism, and less diabetes. Autism in particular was 1 in 500 in the late seventies and it has now skyrocketed to 1 in 50. Why so many? Why so soon?

I am so sorry that I didn’t know that the government has paid out $3billion to families injured by vaccines through the VICP (Vaccine Injury Compensation Program). As a matter of fact, I assumed that all vaccines were very very safe. They have to be because we give them to everyone’s kids, right?!?? I am so sorry that I didn’t realize that there are tens of thousands of families on a list that have never received compensation because they couldn’t 100% prove that the vaccine created an injury (even though many of them can pinpoint the day and time that their babies’ lights dimmed).

And until recently, I had never heard of a CDC scientist/whistleblower named Dr. William Thompson (note, I can’t link to a story because even the article written in Forbes has been removed online). Dr Thompson was brave enough to come forward because his conscience was killing him. I feel like such an ignorant ASS to say the least.

Dr. Thompson revealed that a study conducted at the CDC showed a 236% increase in the rate of autism in African-American boys who received the MMR vaccine before the age of 36 months. He states that an internal decision was made to change the study results to demonstrate that there was no increased risk…and he feels really bad about all the lives he ruined.

The documentary Vaxxed plays a percentage of the four hours of voice recordings between the whistleblower/Dr. Thompson and another scientist. All of this would be impossible to believe without those recorded phone conversations.

Of course I am Black mom, sister, aunt, cousin, and friend. As a Black physician, with a mostly Black patient base, I am very very concerned and very sorry. But I am also concerned as a person that loves all people and children regardless of race. What does this information about one vaccine on one group of children infer about all vaccines and all groups of children?

As a mom of a new tiny precious being and a doctor of many, I am left with so many questions: Should vaccines be delayed? Are any vaccines safe? If so, which ones? Are there more vaccine-injured victims that we even know about? Should genetic testing be conducted on all children before we assume that they can tolerate all of those vaccines?

And my most important question: Why won’t Congress subpoena Dr. Thompson so that we can really really know the truth about this particular vaccine.

I have to thank Del Bigtree for taking the time to show me the data that I was inadvertently pretending not to see, and I really have to thank Dr. Thompson. Without this information, we would never have known, and it all would’ve just been written off as mishmash of conspiracy theories.

With what I now know, I cannot support mandatory vaccines for children. Some kids respond well to vaccines, but others do not. How can we be sure who will and who will not? Should we really sacrifice one for many? Parents have to have the right to choose! Parents have to make their own informed decisions. Parents deserve access to this information which has been buried so deep that even I, a practicing physician, hadn’t been aware of.

I apologize from the bottom of my heart to any children and parents that I have unknowingly harmed. I had no idea.

Please ask questions and make the time to go see the documentary Vaxxed. Form your own opinions, do your own research, and then talk to your physician. Demand to hear from Dr. Thompson, pass this information along to your loved ones, and start these conversations. We all deserve answers, and this is the only way to get any.

People keep asking me if I’m scared to speak about this. My realest fear is that we will continue to assume that these moms are making this stuff up.


Rachael L Ross, M.D., PhD

From a Nurse

I’m a nurse practitioner and here is my story.

My dad is a paediatrician and I was raised as conventional as you can get. If we had a fever, we took Tylenol. Cough/congestion…we took cough medicine and often antibiotics. We went to every well visit and received all of our vaccines. It wasn’t even a question to not get them. Fast forward and now I’m a nurse with 2 babies and they are, of course, all vaccinated per CDC schedule. Didn’t even question what was being injected into my babies, didn’t bat an eyelash. Because the paediatricians are the good guys, they know what is best for my child. I remember even joking with my mom when it came time for each of their 4 year old shots (oh no, we have the 4 year old shots coming up, they don’t know what they are in for poor things). It honestly makes me nauseated now just thinking about it.

As a nurse I had to get a flu shot every year which I got the very first day it was offered and would fuss at my husband because he never got one. In fact, my nursing friends and I would make fun of anti-vaxxers, asking ourselves “how could they possibly be so stupid to think they shouldn’t get vaccines?”.

I went back to school in 2015 to become a nurse practitioner and halfway through was my paediatrics course…we learned about the vaccine schedule, we watched a pro-vax video (a mother was crying talking about how she didn’t give her baby the whooping cough vaccine and she was so sick for so long, etc…that type of video) and then, here’s the interesting part…the professor spent about an hour talking about how Dr. Andy Wakefield is a fraud, how vaccines are safe, even what to say and do if parents don’t want to vaccinate.

We did NOT learn about side effects, we did NOT learn about the VAERS system or how to report a vaccine injury…heck, why would we because we were taught that there are no injuries from vaccines. Even though I still had my blinders on during this class (and oh man how I WISH i knew then what I know now…I would have politely and articulately dismantled everything that professor said), I remember thinking it was odd that she spent so much time talking about Andy Wakefield.

OK…so now not only do I have my years experience growing up with my dad’s advice, I now have learned all about vaccines from grad school and then “THE” conversation happens…a dear friend of mine, whose children are 12 and 10, for some reason brought up the fact that when her 12 year old was a baby, she delayed his vaccines…I immediately start with “Oh my goodness! WHY would you have done that? Don’t you know that all you were doing was increasing his chances of obtaining a deadly disease?” And she said that she couldn’t remember all of the details it was so long ago, but that she and her husband spent a lot of time researching what little info there was available back then. SOOO…I could try to paint myself in a positive light and say that because I respected my friend, I researched what she said because I thought she might be right. WRONG! I was basically being a huge jerk and thought “Ok, well I’m just going to prove her wrong…I’m going to find research that proves my point and then I will SHOW HER”…

So the research began…I was trying to find studies showing that children who were on delayed schedules of vaccines had worse outcomes than children who received them on the CDC schedule. Well, no shocker…I COULDN’T FIND ANY!! And you know how it goes, once you start researching it takes you down so many rabbit holes…some that you don’t even want to go down they are so dark. Vaccines became my new obsession and I would procrastinate doing my grad school work because I had found another amazing documentary to watch or book to read on vaccines. And it’s interesting, during my research for vaccines, I also came to believe many other things I had learned from western medicine were incorrect. So much so, that my friends in school lovingly called me the “voodoo nurse practitioner” and they would ask me all of the time on advice for natural solutions for peoples health problems. But interestingly enough, when the topic of vaccines came up, all of a sudden, I lost all of my credibility and my friends would say “well now you’ve taken this whole natural thing too far”.

I went from “all vaccines for everybody” to “well, maybe not everybody should get every vaccine” to “well, I think vaccines used to be safe, but now there are just too many and it’s not safe” to “How could ANYONE think that vaccines are a good idea? And I will NEVER give my children another vaccine, and if that means we have to move or I need to home school them, then so be it”.

If I could go back in time, my children would have gotten ZERO vaccines and I would have rejoiced knowing that I was doing the best thing I could to help protect my children. But it took me a full YEAR to get there. All of my family (except my husband) thinks I have totally lost my mind and I am perfectly okay with that. So here are my 3 takeaways:

1) Let’s stop putting medical professionals on a pedestal. Because we don’t know jack about vaccines. I mean it…we are not taught ANYTHING about them. Even my dad, who is one of the sweetest and smartest doctors I know and is very pro vaccine even admits that he had “maybe an hour” of vaccine education in med school.

2) Research until you are 100% confident in your decision…whether it’s to give your kid every vaccine, or only a few, or none…but whatever your choice is, OWN that decision. You should not vaccinate out of fear, that is not being an empowered parent…it simply means you have not done enough research. If you’re saying “Oh my little one’s shots are coming up and I don’t know what to do! I’m scared to give them and I’m scared not to give them” That means you have NOT done enough research because you are not confident in your decision…keep going until you reach a place of confidence but in the meanwhile, don’t vaccinate…you can always vaccinate later, you can’t unvaccinated.

3) Lastly, don’t give up on people. Keep speaking the truth. There is a time and a place to share what’s in your heart and there’s also a right and a wrong way to share it…but don’t stop sharing. When my children were babies, if ANY of my friends had come up to me and said “Amy, I know that you think vaccines are safe, but if you haven’t looked at the ingredients in them, I really think you should”, I would have listened. I may not have agreed with the person right then and there, but it would have planted a seed that “holy crud, there might be ingredients in there that aren’t safe?” and I would have researched. And yes, you will get people who think you’re crazy. That’s ok, just move on. There are people out there who are searching for the truth and will know it when they find it, but if you are not speaking the truth, they may never hear it.

From Another Nurse

I have been a family nurse practitioner for 20 years. For all but the past 8 years, I had bought into all my education and the guidelines set before me. All of my children (each born 5 weeks premature) were vaccinated fully and on schedule. I never questioned and never feared giving vaccines to my own children and ordered more vaccines for children than I care to recall. I would have told you my children were “just fine” despite the fact that my oldest had severe eczema to the point of her foot bleeding at her one year old well child check AND that my middle daughter had febrile seizures around 18 months of age, and that my baby boy had asthma within weeks of delivery that was so hard to manage he was on breathing treatments 4x/ day for 6 months. Interestingly, he was off all treatments after 18 months of age (once his first year bombardment of vaccines was completed). In addition, my oldest had pneumonia twice in first grade and kept a bloated tummy that I thought was her “normal.”

So fast forward to my oldest daughter’s 15 year old sports physical. The doctor that I worked for recommended 3 vaccines that day….chicken pox booster, menactra, and gardisil. No problem. Follow the rules. Protect my baby girl. Within the first month, she developed swelling around her mouth to any fruit and throat itching. Scary, right? So off to the allergist. “Oral allergy syndrome” and orders to take some benadryl or antihistamine. Nothing serious.

Then comes gardisil #2. Next month, she developed horrible skin, like sandpaper to her face especially but all over as well. This went on for months, all the while I am desperately seeking answers. By now, she had turned 16, couldn’t wear makeup, skin looked horrific, elevated liver enzymes, episodes of dizziness and feeling like she would pass out, not able to think clearly or rationally (like beyond normal 16 teen girl behaviour), extreme fatigue, gut issues which we later figured out was helped by removing gluten and dairy and sugar (not easy for sure), and asthma for the first time in her life.

Now for allergist visit #2 (new one this time). She reacted to almost everything even things she never ate. We left with singulair, inhalers, steroid Rx, zyrtec, steroid creams. I mean, it was a huge bag of samples and prescriptions each to band-aid a different symptom. I became the FBI mom on steroids myself! How the heck did my daughter’s well child check turn into this nightmare?

So I was determined to get her real help. All of what we had done so far did nothing to help her heal and only put her at risk for long term damage from all the steroids. So I set out to find who or what would work. That is when I began to discover help through chiropractors, nutritionists, muscle testing, biofeedback, diet, supplements, detoxification, etc. I was blown away by the many methods of healing about which I was clueless about despite my years of education in the medical field.

So I began to spend hours researching. I became angry at what I learned. How could it be that the maker of gardisil had already paid millions in criminal charges for lying to providers about their products, that the 3 vaccines given to my daughter on the same day have never been tested together and NEVER with a saline placebo, only other vaccines or an aluminum adjuvant. That at the time my daughter received her gardisil shot, there were over 41,000 vaccine injury reports that included deaths AND that it was not required that I be notified of that fact. (Informed consent, anyone?) Why was I not told that she would NEVER be at risk of dying from cervical cancer if she simply got pap smears regularly (which is now only every 3 years since they have recognized how curable and slow growing it is).

So then I began to research other vaccines and I am totally blown away. How could this have happened? And why? I had no idea how powerful the influence behind vaccines really has become. Due to how long this is already, I won’t include the many research articles I read on pubmed but just to say, they are there. And now we know CDC whistle blowers and even previous major medical journal editors are admitting that studies are being falsified to conceal the truth.

Here is what I now believe:

1) We can no longer trust medical providers to tell us the truth. I was sincerely telling patients the “truth” as I was being told it. I WAS SINCERELY WRONG. I, nor any provider I have worked with, was checking the studies to see if they made sense, or if there were flaws in the study design. I was watching the same media my patients were watching that refuses to report negative stories on drug companies that would cost them in advertising revenues. So I falsely believed that if whistleblower stories were true, the media would cover that. WRONG!

2) Most pediatricians are particularly brainwashed and are being taught how to combat people like me and any parent who questions vaccines. My recommendation is to get out from any office that doesn’t support your choices. Better to see a family practice doctor and chiropractor than a brainwashed pediatrician who refuses to believe a currently employed CDC scientist, who has stated in a sworn statement that he participated in falsifying the study the CDC used to prove once and for all that MMR timing does not contribute to autism. (However, I do recommend giving your pediatrician a chance to know the truth by printing out the transcript of Dr. William Thompson. If they aren’t interested, then change practices.)

3) If anyone should be blamed for decreasing vaccination rates, it should be the very people who claim to be protecting children as they have “poisoned the well” so thoroughly that they cannot be trusted with any decision for my child, or the vast numbers of children in this country. It is nothing short of a holocaust that has taken place allowing thousands of children to be damaged under the guise of protecting them. One only needs to read the package inserts and compare them to the vast numbers of those diseases listed as possible side effects that we see in our children. Are there other contributing factors? Absolutely, but nothing compares to the injection of these toxins directly into the muscle (unlike how any infectious disease will enter).

4) Parents must not be intimidated. BE BRAVE! BE BOLD! Learn ways to care for illnesses that may arise. Learn what it means to eat real food, drink clean water, avoid toxins in your home. There is power in knowledge. And above all, trust that your child was created with an amazing immune system. Acting in fear is never the answer. Gaining knowledge overcomes fear. You have a fellow warrior here and I get what you are going through! Be encouraged. More will learn the truth….hopefully, BEFORE its their child.

~Much appreciation Graham for allowing me to share. Keep on keeping.


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